Dear God, Spare Me

by Castlerock

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released September 6, 2011

for Sayoko Dorothy Shiroishi

recorded in various living rooms, bathrooms, practice rooms and bedrooms from July 2010 to September 2011

Andrea Calderon - voice on (Paul) Simon Says
Noah Guevara - electric guitars on Sayoko
Joshua Huihui - trumpets on Oregon Trail
Patrick Shiroishi - hand claps, piano, tambourine, banjo, synthesizer, melodica, foot tapping, baritone saxophone, trombone, egg shakers, sleigh bells, harpsichord, vibraphone, organ, ukulele, guitars, words and voices
Mallory Soto - voice on (Paul) Simon Says
Jee-Shaun Wang - artwork
Joseph Zamudio - voice on The Sun Will Rise and guitar on Oregon Trail



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Track Name: The Sun Will Rise
Good morning, it’s time to start your brand new day
You can forget all that makes your life grey
Ready yourself, make no delay
Everything will turn out okay

Pour some coffee back into your cup
Put on your suit, your coat and button up
Shine your shoes and polish that smile
See what you’ve been missing for a while

I’ll make it out and seize the day
That’s all we have to do
And I’ll realize with my own two eyes
That if I put my mind to it I can

So don’t feel like you gotta get it right
You will learn the most when things aren’t right
I wonder what it’s like from here on out
But isn’t that what life’s all about?

You decide for yourself.
Track Name: A Tiger in a Flock of Lambs
What were you thinking about when you betrayed us four?
Do we not mean anything?
Why did you need anything more?

I first caught you in the hallway speaking the language of love.
You’re not supposed to speak those words to anyone but the girl to whom you said “I do”

You can’t take it back
I wish I never knew.
You can’t run away,
You must stay and fix this god awful mess that you’ve made.

Did we ever cross your mind while committing your sin?
Could you realize that your actions would tear apart the seams of which I build upon?

How’d you fuck this up?
How could you not be happy?
What will I do now?
I must stay strong and save my loves before this ship sinks.
Track Name: It Was a Saturday Night in America, and I Felt Like a Native Son
I know I’ve done the worst, I can’t even sleep at night
I try to find my peace, but the god I don’t believe in is right
So take me to the chair and let justice be finally served
I know that’s what you think, that we all get what we deserve

I wasn’t born this way, my mama treated me like a prince
She said to be polite and have manners because that’s the way my father had lived
But I never knew that man, so what was I supposed to do?
I know this isn’t what you wanted, but now I’m coming home to you

So goodbye, it was nice to know the few who showed me how to live and do things that all don’t do
Goodbye, goodbye, and maybe we’ll meet again soon
It’s been fun but I have to get going, so goodbye to you

The moment the gavel hit, I could hear nothing else at all
I knew that all was over and that I was the one to fall
Now leave me be in this cell, and let me watch as it turns to dawn
Cause come this time tomorrow, I’ll be dead and gone

So goodbye.
Track Name: (Paul) Simon Says
As I walk down the street and think about our lives
I’m not sure if I can go on like this, I need you here
And be the one that I had so much love for
Can’t you see it all or has it made you blind?

As I set around my house, and think of all the things
That we’ve been through the years
I beg, I plead, and I wish that I could tear them all apart
And I wish that we could start from scratch again

If I could only be there
If I could only be strong
Track Name: Oregon Trail (Traveling Song)
I gotta get away from this standard life
I have to run I have to start all over
I have to start a new beginning
Cause this routine is getting older by the minute

How do these people just do the same old thing?
Don’t they care, don’t they want to live their lives?
Make something out of anything?
I’m sure your life is getting duller by the minute

Would it be wrong if I left behind everything,
If I just packed up all my things and said goodbye?
Would you follow my lead?
Would you be brave enough to start your new beginning?

I want to go and start my brand new beginning.
Track Name: Dorothy
I never thought that I was lucky
I took for granted all the things I had
I know that others have it worse
So I won’t complain, I won’t

I always thought that I’d be traveling
Instead of living in LA
I didn’t think that id be raising my family and giving up the things I had

I don’t really know why all the things come about the way they do
Why couldn’t everything just happen the way I planned?
I guess that’s how we always grow

So let’s figure out what we’re going to do
Cause things just don’t go away
I know that things are never fair
But who ever said that life was going to be?

You told me things would be alright
Well is that really what you think?
You tell me that there is a plan for each of us
Well where is mine?

So go ahead and take away my golden crown
It doesn’t matter if I have it anyway
I don’t need those plastic things
As long as I have my friends and you
I’m not rich, I don’t got gold, all the things that they’ve got I don’t need
I know I’ve got it all

So whoever said I wouldn’t be happy?
Track Name: Sayoko
Sometimes when I close my eyelids I can see your face
It’s something I will never forget
And all the times that we’ve been through, all the wars we’ve fought
I wish you were here by my side

Come and watch over me from your place in the sky
I hope you know that in my mind, you will never ever die

Inside those fucked concentration camps I met your love
It’s something I will never forget
It’s destiny that did bring us together that year
And though you’re gone, I still feel you in my bones

Don’t you worry I will see you pretty soon.
But I have to finish living life for the both of us
Track Name: Delectāre
I think it’s time I wrote the right song for you
And all things that I have got
I should be the most grateful boy I know
Cause your love, it fills my empty soul

And it’s because the love you give
I don’t know how I could repay you, but I’ll give my all to you

You are so strong, you carry both our weights
And keep my body from sinking down
I should be the most grateful boy I know
Cause your love, it fills my hollow heart

I wouldn’t know how I would go, I doubt I could make it on my own
Please, don’t ever let me go, because I would perish like a stray

So cross my heart and hope to live
Cause I’ve got so much more to do
And we’ve got so much more to grow
Cause your love, it fills my body up

I hope that we can stay this way for good
I hope that all the things will go our way
And I’ll hope for the best

Things will never go the way we want them to
So we’ll have to fight the fight and not look back
I’ll have to fight the fight and never look back

Don’t you worry darling, I’ll make you proud of me
Track Name: Reflects dans l'eau
Beauty or beast, which one will you live to be?
Don’t ever stray or become the damned
There are always choices, the tough and the easy
So which path will you take when you crave relief?

I need the relief.

I know I’ve been wrong
But tell me who hasn’t been?
I see many things, both beautiful and horrid
But they tell me it’s all in the eye of the beholder

I try to be good and make the ones around me forget and leave their worries behind
But I seem to take the precious ones I love the most for granted
For that let me say I’m truly sorry

Why can’t I be the man that I want to be?
I just can’t make everyone happy
What will it take, what will it take?
Is it even in me?

I’ll find it.
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I found it.
Track Name: The Moon Will Stay (Reprise)
Good evening the day is finally done
But the truth is your life has just begun
The battles that you’ve won and lost
They will all make you the man that you want to be
So go on, live your life and brave through it all